I have been under a great deal of stress watching my youngest daughter go through the severe illness (liver disease/alcoholism), death, and funeral of her husband. She has been behaving very strangely -- telling untrue things-- mood swings -- grandiose plans -- spending and money out of control -- This has been going on for some time but increasingly worse in the past three months. Of course she is resistant to any suggestion that she has a problem...Her sister and brother and I have all spoken to her and her reaction was one of anger. She is exhibiting delusional behavior now and I discussed it with my pdoc who said that it sounds like she is definitely bipolar possibly with borderline personality disorder. Just waiting to hear that she is in big trouble and then telling the authorities that she is the daughter of a bipolar person in treatment and that she needs psychiatric help. If I had known I was bipolar, I wouldn't have had children -- I wouldn't have passed this on to another person. As it is, two of my three chiildren are...the third one has a problem with depression. Go figure..
These are the oftentimes tumbled thoughts of a bipolar mind going through rapid cycling. You have no idea what it is like to try to think while your thoughts are racing and your opinions are changing as they are being formed. But some of this is just life, depression,anger at being misunderstood and discriminated against, or maybe it's just the medicine or I've just really lost my grip!
Monday, October 22, 2007
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