These are the oftentimes tumbled thoughts of a bipolar mind going through rapid cycling. You have no idea what it is like to try to think while your thoughts are racing and your opinions are changing as they are being formed. But some of this is just life, depression,anger at being misunderstood and discriminated against, or maybe it's just the medicine or I've just really lost my grip!
Sunday, March 27, 2005
HAPPY EASTER, MUDBUGS & TECHNOLOGY
Saturday, March 26, 2005
FOR THE BIRDS
If you have a love of humming birds as I do, have a look at http://community-2.webtv.net/hotmail.com/verle33/HummingBirdNest It's an incredible over time viewing of from building of nest til the last bird leaves the nest. It's fascinating to note the size of the eggs when shown against a toothpick marked with 1/2 inch notations. These small beauties I have forever held in awe. They appear to never hold still; however, last summer there was one that came to drink from my feeder that actually stopped his tail "spin" and sat perfectly still on the feeder. I was amazed. Anyone else find these wonderful birds particularly charming?
Thursday, March 17, 2005
The other big concern gay marriage. Is this really a world shaking issue? I thought we had civil union legislation to cover same sex unions. Leave marriage law as it is. I don't believe love is changed by what you call it. Surely we have more important things for our legislative body to ponder. But even so, it has turned into another media hype. Just turn on your computer and type in the word marriage and you will get a barrage of info on gay marriage that will make you hair stand on end. I agree with her that love is such a precious commodity I would not wish anyone to be without it in whatever form it may take. And the gay community may feel strong about this. but once again the press is having a heyday; and that is really what I object to the most. The loud, obnoxious probing opinionated press.
I guess what disturbs me is we seem to have the accent on the wrong syllable. We will publish anything in the name of freedom of the press. But tell me, do we not abuse that freedom when anything and everything is fair game. What happened to reporting "the facts, ma'am." One cannot for one minute give credence to what is read in anything being published. We are a society of opinions, stories written for shock value. Whatever happened to reading the newspaper and knowing that what you read was news not hype. And while I'm at it, what ever happened to at least one upbeat story in the paper...Just one? When people start demanding a different kind of journalism and quit responding to what we are getting, we might find some actual journalists still exist.
Sunday, March 13, 2005
WHAT IS ART & FUN & LOVE--VERY PERSONAL
The crowd was another interesting item. Bill suspecting it would be quite varied wore his Levis, boots. cowboy shirt, and hat And one of the best parts of the evening was that my sonl was here from Phoenix to play and sing. I enjoyed hearing him and watching him. He is so good. It is too bad that the right place at the right time hasn't happened for him. But maybe it is just as well. A man raising two sons by himself probably doesn't need to be leading the life of a musician.
After Michael finished playing,we all went to dinner and then three of us went on home. Saturday everyone came over here and we had a day round the pool and barbecue. Meg was also invited because it was her birthday. At night, the guys cooked steak and lobster, potatoes and corn. We had birthday cake for Meg and she seemed happy to have her birthday party here.
It was nice to have a chance to visit with Mike and see how things are going with him since Laura has left. That just sort of came from out of nowhere. He's determined to try to settle it with little uproar and as peaceably as possible. I hope that she don't get demanding and he is able to do that. He has a lot invested in that relationship and I think for her to walk out on him and the two boys, frankly she ought to just walk out and not expect anything! Mike is trying to refinance the house so he can give her half the equity...I say she gets half what they put down ...After all, he is paying off her car. And there are the fines from her drunk driving charges and the insurance rates they have been paying. I'll bet if you added up what it cost for her to work, it would show she didn't contribute much if any to their income by the time you add her drink tab 4-5 nites a week. Oh well, not my fight and I didn't say anything either. Just venting here. Sometimes being a good mom is shutting your mouth real tight and letting the words explode inside. It's one of my poems. on my poetry blog.
Anyway, that was an interesting two days out of three. and this third day? well I pruned the palm trees, weeded, and leveled some soil. Believe it or not! m